How it feels right now.

To have definitively ended and somehow begun.

 

Homage to my beautiful friend and fellow MFA grad, Christina Rosalie, who sums it up so well in words: How it feels in the end.

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Art in the Age of Digital Reproduction

In the Work of Art in the Age of Mechanical Reproduction Walter Benjamin, laments the loss of authenticity that comes with mechanical or technical reproduction of art. In his opinion, the “presence of the original is the prerequisite to the concept of authenticity.” Anything else is a forgery or essence-less reproduction. Authenticity, like reverence, is yet another subtle cultural value that we can all agree upon. Aura, the feeling of connection to the story, history and direct transmission of the artist, is indeed irreplaceable.

“From a photographic negative, one can make any number of prints; to ask for the “authentic” print makes no sense.” Benjamin makes the undeniable point that digital art can not be “authentic.” Nonetheless, does that negate it’s meaning?

I agree that mechanical reproduction of objects are lacking in substance and depth; yet, I think that there is more to art than just aura. There is the process and ritual for the artist creating it and there is the moment and experience for the viewer on observing it. Both the process and the moment are intangible - unlike objects, neither can be owned.

To me the power of art comes from those intangible moments. And I believe that there can be an authenticity of the purpose and process – detached from the material history of the object. A painting can be “owned” and hung on a wall – and although there is a sovereignty in knowing it is the original, is that really where its power comes from? The problem with Benjamin’s assertion of authenticity is that it is founded in the values of a materialistic culture.

What I think is most revolutionary about digital art is that by nature it is detached from the idea of possession and thus one “authentic” piece of art. Digital art forces us to let go of our attachment to the thing itself and focus on the making and the moment. If you ask anyone what they would rather lose in a fire – their beloved leather couch or their family photos, 99% of people would answer couch. It’s the moments that matter and that have value – a value purer than monetary or material.
A value that transcends time and space.

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The ritual of craft in the age of information.

My MFA thesis with it’s focus on ritual has recently taken an interesting turn towards craft.

After spending the past several months dissecting ritual, determining what is and isn’t a ritual, I’ve come to the conclusion that rituals in our modern society are by necessity very subtle. As a culture we have trouble talking about anything beyond what we can prove. Imagination is for kids and artists, spirituality is for people who don’t believe in science or weird new-agers. I’m exaggerating a little, but the point is that we are not a culture that believes in magic; we believe in logic and science. Hence our rituals no longer focus around ephemeral gods and their blessings or wrath.

In the past century, our civilization has travelled through an industrial age to a material age and we are now passing into an information age. The industrial age and it’s obsession with mechanizing and quantifying all of our daily needs led us into a material age where objects rule. As the pendulum has swung so far towards the side of mass production, the leading, first world countries have reached a state of critical mass where material goods saturate our lives. Most of us are satiated in our material possession which is why we are now devaluing goods and valuing information. Information is the new “god” of modern culture.

My observation is that there is a subculture of people who are looking to regain or maintain knowledge and connection to basic life necessities ie. food, home, craft. This back to land, locavore movement, is in a sense a neo-religion for our modern secular culture. We want to bring meaning back into our lives by being connected to the things that sustain us. Thus, craft, once a means of creating basic life goods, is now a symbol of higher values for both the patrons and professionals. I believe that practicing a craft, is a vessel for achieving the feeling of reverence that many of us seek.

Craft, more than ever, is a ritual.

 

 

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Modern Symbols

Imagine a world where everything you needed was pre-made, available at the click of a button, or better yet, just the simple thought “I want a cookie.” Imagine the time it would save, the tedium it would eliminate. Imagine all the other things you could do with that time…

What would you do?

Well? What do you do? We are living in a time where day to day life is no longer dependent on you being the procurer of food, water and other basic life necessities. The need is still there, but the means have changed.

As we move away from standard ways of living, we also move away from clear, agreed upon life goals. The ways in which we survive are arbitrary, inconsistent and indirect. It is a double edge sword, one side is a life of ultimate, self directed meaning, the other side is a life of no meaning.

In the past, one entered into a world of fully defined roles and belief systems in the form of family, culture, socio-economic statuses, and religion. Today, in modern culture, we have more options than ever before – many of us have much more freedom to choose our roles and our belief systems. Everything is up for scrutiny – analyzed, critiqued, checked by our own internal quality control. For the most part, we individually get to decide which symbols will hold meaning and which will return to their straightforward lives.

I’m fascinated by the symbols that we pick and the rituals we uphold or create to grant life meaning. For many, meaning now leans heavily on careers and hobbies. In fact, I’d go so far as to say that careers and hobbies have become our most ubiquitous modern day symbols of our values and belief systems.

In a world of mechanical production, one of my favorite identity totems is that of the artisan. The person who decides to continue making things one, by one, with their bare hands and full intention. Craft, more than ever before, lives in the realm of symbolism and most certainly ritual.

(My thesis body of work will be focused around filming these artisans. Expect more to come on the topic of craft!)

What crafts do you do, if any? (cooking counts!)
What do they represent to you?

 

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Why I love Path

In case you aren’t aware, we are living in the Wild West of the Internet age. We are flooding into a new territory that has no pre-established boundaries, or establishments, or roads or any other landmarks of a civilized community. We are making it up as we go and filling the space the way we kow how, but in no particularly laid out order, plan or foresight. The wild West is a good metaphor, but mind you it is just a metaphor as this place is a completely new territory where spacial limitations are gone and everything we need in terms of knowlegde and communication is available to us in the palm of our hand, on a screen in our kitchen, car, bathroom. All places, all at once. Omnipresent.

Some of the first inhabitants have played a large role in shaping this world for us and our current perceptions on what it all implies. For the most part we have been at the whim of the boldest, most timely and tenacious pioneers. But as more settlers enter this new land, I think that, my hope is that, we will start molding it to fit our needs.

There have been some great articles in the Atlantic lately about disconnecting and the need to manage our online world. I feel strongly that an escapist mentality is not the way to go. Alexandra Samuel, author of the blog “Love your Life Online” wrote a great “Plug in Better Manifesto” that offers some sound advice on how to manage your online life.

Here is a mini manifesto from me:
“Facebook is not really your friend.”

Facebook, the patriarch of our online social life has come to represent our entire social network. Undoubtedly there is a ton of value in having this space to store everyone under one roof, but the value to us as a tool for expression is slim and shallow. The vastness and diversity of the facebook network is huge and thus mixes every identity I have ever had, high schooler, camper, teacher, employee, co-worker etc in one place. The result: censorship and confusion.

Meanwhile, a space where I can post to my closest friends the deeper or more personal parts of my life, the ones that matter, did not exist.

Enter Path.

Over the past few weeks I have been engaging in Path with six of my closest techie friends. It has been great! Beyond the beautifully designed interface, I love what I can do: post photos, update them on my whereabouts, feelings, cute guys I see etc. and vice versa. This is a tool that brings me closer to the people I care about, this is a tool I want in my life.

Facebook, you have a role, but your role is growing less and less important everyday. We complain about our lack of time and yet, we do not guard it carefully. My close friends deserve my attention, my acquaintances, not so much. Facebook, stop pretending you care about anything other than my data, I know better.

We are the map makers and we are the creators of this new landscape, this wild, wild west. We need to come together to make it beautiful, more human and true. Thank you Path for providing a way out of the chaos! (but please don’t be evil again)

 

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Rituals are about reverence and recipes

I’ve been reading a fantastic book called “Reverence: Renewing a Forgotten Virtue” by Paul Woodruff a Philosopher and Professor of the Humanities. He does a phenomenal job of breaking down reverence into both a past and modern day context and in a style that is both concise and thorough and most importantly “edible.” In my thesis research, it has been hard to find a scholarly book that doesn’t have magical sleep inducing properties.

So what is reverence? This quote by Woodruff frames this question well: “Reverence compels me to confess that I do not know exactly what reverence is.” Reverence, like all virtues, is hard to define. It is something that is created through learned experience and carries with it the subtleties of culture and of things we know but can’t put into words. Reverence is the feeling of awe you get when you encounter something larger than yourself, “reverence is the virtue that keeps human beings from trying to act like gods.”

It occurred to me that reverence was the core of ritual as well as my pursuit of it’s meaning. Reverence is the essence and ritual is the form.

Woodruff goes into great detail about what is reverence and what is not, but I’ll leave you to read the book for that depth of understanding. In the meantime, I should cycle back to ritual (I am learning to resist you, tangent!)

Finding this core has helped me to take the next step in my thinking about ritual. If ultimately, reverence is the goal, a ritual could take any form couldn’t it?

Perhaps. Yes. and then no…
I have an inkling that there are good recipes and there are bad recipes.

So here is my first attempt to put together a list of ingredients:

1. An intro – this is necessary to transition into the ritual. The idea of the “magic circle,” a term coined by Dutch historian Johan Huizinga, is helpful here. The magic circle is a place where suspension of disbelief and artificial sets of rules are allowed. Most commonly seen in kids games where we understand most purely the power of imagination.

2. Symbols – these represent the myths and metaphors we need to buy into the magic circle.
(more on this to come as I delve into Campbell, Eliade and Segal.)

3. History – I am starting to think that this is key. History allows ritual to have a feeling of transcending time and space. To think that people thousands of years ago were doing the same thing and feeling similarly as you are is incredibly profound. It also makes it harder to question. History demands the ritual be taken more seriously like antiques vs. Ikea.
** At the same time, I think this is a more controversial ingredient and deserving of it’s own discussion to come.

4. Other people – also controversial, but there is a potent power in knowing you are not alone. One role of ritual is that it ties you to a larger community – one of the key parts of reverence – the feeling that you are connecting to something bigger than yourself. Can this be achieved in other ways – yes. But is a solo ritual legit? Maybe this one is backed up by ingredient number 3?

What else comes to mind for you? What problems, holes or truths do you find in the beginnings of my recipe?

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30 in the year of the Dragon

So I’m turning thirty in a day or two and I’m excited. It’s been a long road but finally things are starting to gel. I’m finishing up an exhilarating two year grad program in which I was able to geek out on culture and theory, code, software, countless web apps and social media. Most importantly, I gave myself permission to let art become a larger part of my life than ever before and as a result cultivated a voice I can never imagine being without.

And I gots a job!  A real one, with benefits and flushing toilets! One that I think is as close as I’ve come to a job soulmate. One that comes with a totally blank palate for me to paint (swoon) and cool co-workers and start-up momentum.

In reality, I know that the road ahead is still tenuous and heavy; however, my goals and dreams stay light and positive as they should. I thought it would be appropriate to put them down here in cyber ink for fun and to celebrate year 30, the year of the firey dragon.

Inspired by the amazing firestarter Christina Rosalie, here is my list of 30 dreams and goals for the next 30 years, small to large, specific to broad, soon to far.

  1.  learn guitar
  2.  have a gallery show of my photography
  3.  see more live music
  4.  laugh, a lot
  5.  go to an awesome music festival like SXSW or Coachalla
  6.  visit my sister and brother in law in LA
  7.  go turkey hunting with my brother
  8.  have more outdoor bonfires with friends
  9.  meet my soulmate
  10.  own a house and make it beautiful
  11.  ski in Japan
  12.  make enough money to be comfortable and generous
  13.  dance more
  14.  go on a week canoe trip in the Quetico Wilderness
  15.  go on a hut to hut ski trip in Europe
  16.  visit Iceland
  17.  learn to free-dive
  18.  organize a collaborative documentary
  19.  have a family
  20.  attend a TEDx
  21.  organize a conference for creative, tech folk in BTV
  22.  work with smart, innovative and creative people to create something revolutionary
  23.  grow flowers and make bouquets
  24.  speak Spanish more regularly
  25.  make my own cheese
  26.  have a gallery show of my dad’s photos from Germany
  27.  do a photo series using Ed’s Mamiya
  28.  take more self portraits
  29.  remember friends’ birthdays
  30.  ride a dirt bike
This list could go on and on, but it feels like enough to keep me going for now…
Let me know what you think.
Here’s to the year of the dragon, and many more!
XO,
Hilary

 

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Build your own ritual

A ritual is an action that is performed in a specific way; yet, whose meaning is symbolic as opposed to literal. Ritual comes from the Sanskrit word rta which refers to both art and order. Hence, rituals are different from habits and routines because we give them a meaning beyond the rational.

Traditionally, rituals were hand me downs- actions that were kept alive through tight, relatively stable and rooted communities. They were the glue that held a culture together, enforcing values and helping guide transitional or uncertain periods of life. Yet, I believe that as our modern American society has long severed from a communal way of life, many rituals have been discarded for rationality, secularism, automation and individualism – traits that do not as easily embrace the symbolic.

But like all culture, nothing truly dies, it just evolves. In our customized culture, rituals too are evolving into their own inspired stews via the hands of individuals seeking to create meaning in their lives. My goal, as I finish my graduate program, is to document these creations and their creators.

So, I need your help!  I need you to share your story. Do you have rituals in your life? If so, what purpose do they serve? Do they ground you, motivate you, or help you let go?  Do they ebb and flow in potency and value? Where do they come from? Family? Other cultures? Or your own creation?

These are the questions that excite and intrigue me, please share!

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Underwater

Aren’t these amazing? The result of a fiercely windy morning on the lake prior. The likeness to underwater plants is striking and although I can’t quite formulate any scientific understanding to why that would be, it feels completely obvious. Like a wink from mother nature that leaves me puzzled but with a vague understanding that there is a secret we now share.

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Out by the lake on another gray morning, by this time it has just become the default, I don’t expect much else. I’ve switched over to my macro lens so that I can narrow my focus and get lost in the details – a good strategy for when the big picture is too dull or depressing.

This morning I am drawn to the buds on the trees; they represent exactly how I feel lately – hopeful and stirring with energy. I’m in an idea mode – ready to transition to a put my head down and work mode. The most inspiring part of being a bud in winter is the patience and perseverance it takes to sit tight in the cold weather  - ready to explode when the warm air comes.

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