It hit me today. What was I thinking when I agreed to this challenge? I wasn’t thinking, really. that’s why I agreed. An impulse decision of sorts. A jump first, figure it out later move. I’ve learned that this kind of naivety is an essential part of any creative feat. If you consider all the work, frustration and energy said project would take, you’d never start. The best projects, the ones driven by passion, blind your ability for rational thinking. And once you are in, you have no choice but to keep moving forward. In fact, it’s often the choice itself that is the most tortuous – the mental seesaw of obligation.
All that said. I feel like I have a choice here. I could stop. I could change the rules and say 5/5/5 – the last 5 meaning 5 days. done tomorrow. boom. But I know I’d be bummed. I’d feel like I cheated myself of something important. I’m going to try and stick it out. (external encouragement appreciated.)